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Saturday, January 29, 2005

GODDAMMIT

Yesterday was really a bad day for me. eoc results was kinda screwed up but nvm about it. I've already given up hope on this module.

On the way home i was dozing off on the bus. Back at home, i've already got no ounce of strength left. I saw my dad packing his equipments downstairs, so i purposely didn't take a shower immediately. I was afraid he would ask me to go out after that.

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But things jus won't go my way. MY brother asked me how was my day then asked if i could go and help my dad. I glared at him and said "why can't you go?"
He bloody replied me saying that he cannot leave the house. LIke kns la... cannot leave the house? All he does all day is NOTHING. Son of a bitch. If he can't fucking leave the house, then go back to the fucking army and serve the fucking country.

So my dad came upstairs and told me to go out with him for outdoor photoshoot. I was really really upset i wanted to cry. So frickin' tired and i still need to WORK? Like wtf man. What's the point of studying hard when i still need to do this fucking job? I really hate his job. BUt i can't do anything. I know i must go and help. IF not i would be pissing off my dad to the max.

When i was changing my clothes, my sister and mom came back. Then i heard my dad ask my sister to help him. You know what she said? YOu won't believe it but she said she was TIRED and didn't want to help. WTF is this man?!?!?! So like i'm so energetic and bored, so i'm gonna help my dad? Come on la... xuanmin you are so fucking stupid you got yourself in fucking N(A) stream. You should stop wasting your fucking time studying some fucking subjects, wasting our money. YOu should just stay at home and do housework. Be a maid la fucker. You even got the cheek to say you are tired?? WTF MAN. Look at yourself. You should really go and die right now. NOW. YOu shouldn't exist at all. You are simply useless. You don't do anything thing to help out, you can't study, you talk like a cock, you look like one too. GO TO HELL. JUST GO! GO TO THE FRICKIN' HELL U ASSHOLE!!

SO i went, and it was frickin' smeely there and nosiy. BLOODY HELL, I HATE THOSE KINDA PLACE. I didn't speak to my sister for the rest of the day. She was sleeping when i came home. I wanted to wake her up and give her a tight slap on the face. BITCH

End of story. If i continue, my blood vessels will burst. Life's a bitch.
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This morning, my sister came and remove my specs. I slept with it last night no purpose. I wanted to sit up and punch her on the face hard and yell at her. BUt somehow, some part of me told me not to. So i let her take my specs off but i was hating her to the core right down in my heart.

Then i was "sleeping" still and my dad and sister came into my room. They were talking about buying NY clothes. I CANNOT BELIEVE MY EARS! My father is asking my sister to buy clothes. HE forgotten about yesterday? If i didn't go, this morning i would be getting a totally different treatment. WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD.

Then my dad tells my sister not to reborn her hair and my sister was like "wei she mo?!?!?! wei she mo bu ke yi?!?!" U BITCH! ALL YOU DO IS BOOTLICKING AND YOU GET WHAT YOU WANT. YOU SHOULD REALLY GO AND BE A PROSITUTE. THAT'S THE KIND OF JOB FOR YOU. I'm very very annoyed right now. I really hate my sister. I want to kill her right now with my own hands. But come to think of it, killing her now will not even ease my anger. I've never been so angry for a long long time. This time i must have my revenge. I cannot let her get away with it.

11:25 AM
i spilled milk on the lawn