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Friday, January 07, 2005

It's a Friday again! =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!!!!

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to mummy
happy birthday to you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

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Extremely worn out this week. Slept this afternoon immediately after i got back from school. Couldn't even gather the strength to wake up. geez... and i have icas next wk and the following wk. I wish time would wait awhile and let me catch my breath. Everything is just too hectic.

This week is filled with laughter and joy(which i enjoyed thoroughly), confusion and irritation which really makes me feel down.

Lets' start with the happy things! Laughter really filled the air this entire week. Every single day of it. And it is good 'cause laughter is the best medicine! =) JOked around with lijuan, shiying, cheryl and wendy. I can't really remember what we joked about, there is just too many of them. I practically laughed at everything with lijuan. I laughed at her, she laughed at me. Sometimes i don't know why i laughed for.
GUys, if we are ever out of jobs, we can come together and entertain people with our lameness, coldness, bimboness or whatever it is. Anyway, thanks for being their to fill my life with LOTS of laughter and joy.

oK, and now the irritation part. 4 cockroaches have been sighted this week ever since tue internet and web technologies lesson. Of you know your week well it goes like: Tues, Wed, Thurs, Fri. Know you know your week, let's start:

Tue: I was looking at pesticide PP slides from wendy's computer. My face was pretty close to the monitor and so far the PP slides are all words and charts. Suddenly right after a click, a picture of 4 cockroaches appeared. They were lying on their back. I got a shocked of course and kinda jumped up alittle from my seat. I think i made a comment or smth because people were rushing off their seats in the middle of the lesson to look at wendy's monitor. Guess i interpruted the lesson alittle. Or was it quite alot? I don't know. Made me kinda embarrased after that. After lesson cheryl, lijuan and shiying went into the toilet. Then there was this loud piercing scream seconds later. The first thought that crossed my mind was either there was a cockroach or a flasher. Possibility of a flasher is damm low, so it's only left with cockroach. Made me wanna run but i thought it'll be so.... "not friend enough" if i ran. So i just stood there waiting for the 3 of them to come out. And so the story goes on...

Wed: Before econs lecture i went to the toilet ALONE. Saw a cockroach inside. 10ft away. I didn't scream. It's just not me to scream at everything thing. I'll scream only when the cockroach is 1ft from me. So i stood there, wanted to run, but somehow i didn't run. I stared at it. It stared at me. Then it walked towards me ina quick pace. This is when i ran out of the toilet.

Thurs: Morning. I went to the kitchen alone. Saw a half dead cockroach lying on it's back. Stood pretty close to it. 2ft away. Looked at it for 5mins. No movement. Went closer by alittle.. opened the fridge door at arms' length. The bloody cockraoch chooses to move at this time. Spasm or sth. Slammed the fridge door and ran upstairs. Daddy came down... refuse to kill the cockroach when i asked him to. Just threw it out of the window. Worst thing is, he nv throw it properly... fell back on the floor and i was "Ahhh!!!! THERE IT IS !!! STILL THERE!!!" Shunned my dad after that... he was coming to me with his hands... the one he used to touch the cockroach. I was like "Don't come near me please.. please... go away!!" My body was like leaning backwards and hands in front of my face. Ahh.. i must have made a fool of myself in front of my dad.

Fri: Got to school early for eoc lesson. Sat on the floor outside lab. At first the lights flickered a little. I was thinking, great, all alone and the dumb lights is flickering. Don't worry, no ghost sighted. But i saw something WORST than a ghost. Cockroach it is. It can out from a tutorial room 20ft away. I was still sitted on the floor.. too tired to stand up. I didn't want to move either, thinking that it'll go away since there is no movement or vibration. So i stared at it... and it took a few steps towards me. I was "please don't come any nearer i beg you". Then it come a few more steps closer again. This time i stood up and ran the opp direction. Luckily terrence and diyana came in time to my rescue. Or i'll be waiting somewhere in the other end.

I HATE COCKROACHES!! I HATE 'EM!! HATE 'EM!! This week is so traumatising. If i'm seeing cockroaches tomorrow and sunday, I'm making my way down to the temple/church/whatever holly place ok! It must be a spell!

ok.. cockroaches aside. Let's talk about work. Seriously i think i'm not going to make it this semester. LEctures are bad. Tutorials are equally as bad. =( Esp stats and accounts. I don't know what on earth is happening. Ahhh... today during stats tutorial, i took so long to figure out what range is. I'm gonna fail my ica. I'm such a disappointment. All my tutorials are wrongly done. I should have just zap from lijuan. I'm wasting natural resources. Dammit.
Eoc lesson, tutor said that she wasn't sure if we got pass ica2 or score for it. I was pretty upset with her comment. I've never failed my english before and i don't want it to happen at all. I'm going to make sure i pass. I MUST PASS!! Ahhhhh.....
Somebody tell me i'm going to fail this semester and i've to retake ALL modules. And that i'm a failure. I failed in every aspect in life. I'm a loser, idiot, dumbass. Tell me i'm born w/o brains. Tell me i'll get into supply chain management(which i hate totally). Tell me!

I'm signing out now. I realised i've wasted 30-45mins typing this shit when i could have used it to sleep more(replenish my energy) or study! Shoot me pls!

10:11 PM
i spilled milk on the lawn