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Monday, January 31, 2005

"titleless"

Had a nice talk with bryce online yesterday. Talk about many things from personal life to school work. Yea.. school. He was complaining about the lack of time + numerous hw. JC life. What can you expect out of it? Anway, school life is just like this. The amount of work to complete can stack up as high as a mountain. This is Singapore. This is reality. Cruel isn't it. Not much choice.Well, actually you DO have a choice. You can have a slack life and then burn lots of midnight oil before exams (which is usually what i do). Or you do constant work so you won't be so freak out by the many things that you need to know, but yet you don't know. Forget about it boy. You can never escape from this beneficial toture. Everyone is going through what you are going through. Take it as it is.

Getting rather pissed off with EOC. Want to get over it asap.. but on the other hand, i wished i had more time. Oh ya.. went home with wendy today. Talking about school work and crapping. I'd leave the crapping part out. No mood. Anyway, i realised that i'm such a lousy student in class. My EOC grades in incorrigible. Honestly i don't mind getting a D for this module. As long as i pass it. But i guess wendy is right. She told me not to be so stupid as a D grade would pull my GPA down. Actually i'm really afraid that i can't get into SM. But on the other hand, i've already given up hope on one module. I might not be able to make it to SM. The probability is high. I know. I've resigned to fate. Too tired to carry on fighting. Getting really low whenever i think about it. I should be satisfied that i've come so far. I've never taken my studies seriously in my whole life. Until the last few months to my O levels. But it's just too late. I've ended up in NYP. Lots of regrets. However, lesson's not learnt. I slack during my poly life and did last minute work for exams. I'm just plain lucky to get those grades. Lady luck doesn't stay forever. It fades. I'm such an ass. Man, i'm really pissing myself off right now. Urghh.. school work aside. No mood too.

My personal life... isn't great either. Nothing much to do with my family. My family problems are usually conflicts within siblings; which is very common. True sometimes my thinking are different from my parents and i don't like to do some things they ask me to. But they've been understanding to the max. So i'm lucky i guess. Compared to many others out there. The problem is.........complicated. My world is just turning upside down.

9:08 PM
i spilled milk on the lawn