I should be sleep at this time. But i can't. I feel sick whenever i lie down. But i'm really really tired. I think i'm really falling sick. My whole damm body is achign and my throat has a funny feeling. I think i might come down with a flu or something. Maybe pneumonia just like my mom and bro. Arrr.. so the virus has defeated me. Maybe SARS! WooHoo!!! Dammit. I'm gonna be sick on CNY. Great isn't it.
Today's economics lesson was average. Understood some parts, still unsure on other areas, others i've got no idea. Luckily i went for lesson. Wanted to skip school today. So frickin' tired and for god-sake-who-knows-why-reason, my left knee cap was aching when i woke up. Couldn't even get out of bed. For a second i thought i'm gonna be paralysed bottom-left-half for the rest of my-already-pathetic-life. How much worst can it get? Dammit again.
Was supposed to have project meeting today. Thank God shiying complaint on my behalf although she sound a little fierce to me. Wahaha... Thank goodness joan cancelled it knowing i wasn't feeling so well. Thanks a million joan and so sorry to my team members for the inconvenience. Will put in 10times effort in my project. I promise. =)
What else? Lijuan found her new way of laughing. And i've mastered how to push people the "lijuan-style". Oh yea, had breakfast with daddy this morning. He was pestering me again to let him know who's coming over for steamboat. I don't see why he's more excited than i am. Ahhh.....
Last night i was thinking about the kind of friends i have. To me, the best kind of friend you can ever get is one that you can sit on the swing with together, in the porch, and not speak a word. But you leave the place feeling that you had just had the best conversation ever. Trust me, it really feels good. I've got such experience. It's really nice because you don't have to say anything, and your buddy knows how you feel/think etc, and he/she sits with you without complaining. And if you ever find such a friend you better cherish him/her. If not you are better off dead.
People who don't know me well always label me as the arrogant-stucked-up girl. One of my friend once told me, "Hey you know when i first saw you, you look like a rich arrogant girl who doesn't give a damm about anyone? I didn't know you could be so LAME". Well see, rich-arrogant-stucked-up girl is so MUCH different from a lamer. Well actually i don't mind how people judge me. Tell me about first impression. Although i don't really have any positive liking for NYP, i've found myself a bunch of people who are real good there. In my dictionary, Good people = sincere people. And of course i found a handful of gems. I'll call them gems 'cause it's like My precious~ *to be said in the LOTR way*
Wait a minute, let me smash the radio first before i continue. I simple cannot stand the CNY music anymore. I think those chinese radio stations are over-doing it. I hope CNY would just come and go asap. It's like not as cool as Christmas.
I don't know why i don't like CNY. Maybe because when i watch tv, i couldn't hear a single thing from the tv set even when the volume is at 40. Perhaps.
sometimes i love all these pain i'm going through cause they remind me how much a failure i am.
04:00am
12/07/07