Friday, February 11, 2005
kaBoom! arghh!! woof!
Ahh. Relatively nice day today~ Except for EOC lesson. Didn't really enjoy every bit of it. So i had stats tutorial.
Got back stats results today. Which was a total disaster. But it's my fault. For not studying hard enough. For not doing my tutorials. dammit. I'm really one heck of a lousy student. Having second thoughts of going to University.
Stayed back after school for don't know what reason. Anyway, i think i need to get in tune fast. Still in the off mode. My brain is getting a'lil rusty. Can't think much. I still have frickin' management powerpoint to complete and I'm way behind time. Things don't look good this time round. Like i said, lady luck doesn't stay forever. I've this bad premonition.. somehow or rather i just have this very strong feeling. This semester is going to a hell of a disaster for me. I think i can't catch up on alot of things. Why does things work this way? When i decide to do it well, it gets so hard.
Just now mummy told me that my stats results is good enough. Don't stress myself. The problem is that if others can do well, why can't i? I'm not stupid. I know. Just lazy. But i can't help it if it's in the genes. Hehe. Arggh... Maybe my parents right, studying makes me sad. I should go back to the past when i'm happier, away from the books. But what will lie in the future?
I used to think that the world is beautiful. That people are great, kind and truthful. Naive eh? No. It's partly because of the environment i'm brought up in and my character. Most kids spend their weekend shopping with their parents. They get so stucked in the concrete jungle. And somehow they enojy it. But this enjoyment won't last forever. Because once you take away this concrete jungle of theirs, they'll never survive in the nature. But not me. I never love the concrete jungle much. My parents bring me to farms, nature reserves etc when i'm young. And i like it alot. I get to experience alot of things, which are amazing. And somehow, this cultivate the "love the nature" thing in me. Maybe that is why I'm very much of an introvert. I never like to talk much but i enjoy listening to people(just like i listen to the forest). And from there, i make my judgement about them. You can know alot about a person just by the way they talk!
But i get to see the real truth since i entered poly. Lots of ugly truth i wished i never knew. People turning ugly just because of grades. People back-stabbing for don't know what sake. People fighting over lame stuff. People accusing. People putting on fake smiles. And that's not the end. Yucks! It's a total turn off.
If i can, i wish i can just live in my very own world. Where there are no ugly people around. When i say ugly, i don't mean the facial features of a person. I'm refering to their nature. Anyway, back to my own world. Yes, there i'll have friends that i like. Friends that i find true. Real friends. That gotta be a dog in this world now. Haha.. only a dog can be true to you. Loyal and faithful. A dog never lie. And they never argue. And they never once think that you are stupid. They do stupid acts with you. How much better can it get when you have a friend like this? Say when you scold him "you're a pig" and he doesn't fight back. I love it! haha.
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Got this off friendster:
Message:
Spell your name and copy what each letter
signifies about your personality. Then, send
this to a whole bunch of people you know!
A - You can be very quiet when you have
something on your mind
B - You are always cautious when it comes to
meeting new people.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you,
dont be shy to show it.
D- you have trouble trusting people
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing
people.
H - You are not judgemental.
I - You are always smiling & making others
smile.
J - Jealousy.
K - You like to try new things.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You like to work, but you always want a
break
O - You are very open-minded.
P - You are very friendly and understanding.
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - You are a social butterfly.
S - You are very broad-minded.
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to
people's standards.
V - You have a very good physical and looks.
W - You like your privacy .
X - You never let people tell you what to do
Y - You cause a lot of trouble.
Z - You're always fighting with someone
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So, let's see:
J - Jealousy. (I beg to differ)
I - You are always smiling & making others
smile.
A - You can be very quiet when you have
something on your mind
X - You never let people tell you what to do
I - You are always smiling & making others
smile.
N - You like to work, but you always want a
break.
Hey!! It's super true. Really reflects me well. I think description A and N suits me best. =D
11:55 PM
i spilled milk on the lawn