Monday, July 04, 2005
contradictions within
Somehow i don't wish to train for the coming IVP.
But what's with the strong inner feeling telling me to have sportsmanship?
I don't want to be out of the school's badminton team.. it took me great pain to get in. Now that i am in, i don't cherish what i've got. This place is something lots of people would vie for. Why do humans work this way? Can someone show me the right way out?
Sigh.
Feeling damn mixed up right now.
I hate every point of my life when i have to make decisions.
Perhaps i'm afraid to make the wrong decision.
I am afraid to make a mistake.
I am afraid to face the consequences thereafter.
I am afraid to fall because i don't know if i can stand again after the fall.
On the brighter note, with the help of my enthusiastic team mate, i managed to get hold of quite a bit of information on... ahem* Well, those who know will know. Hah ! =D
10:44 PM
i spilled milk on the lawn
sometimes i love all these pain i'm going through cause they remind me how much a failure i am.
