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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

yawn

Tiring day although the lessons wasn't taxing at all.
Had 1hr of SVSM
another boring lesson.
i think all lessons in the 1st week are boring..
except for MM since we've already started lect.
Had 4hrs break straight after lesson.
"zzz" thinking about what to do during the 4hrs.
Was looking forward to law lect..
ended up feeling cheated when the it only lasted 15mins.
lol!
the whole lecture is totally useless.. waste of time..
i could have read it myself in CMS or something..
But that's good... i get to come home early to sleep
hehe

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Watching CNA right now.
Some monks are talking about true happiness. Why people are always unsatisfied and unhappy? Because of anger, greed and ignorance. I think i'm gonna blog down some of the things they mentioned.. and next time when i look back at my posts, i'll see this post and do some self reflections =)

Ignorance
They mention that human always mix up their needs and wants. Our needs are actually very simple and out wants are complexed. Because WE cannot differentiate these 2, we mix up them out resulting in unnecessary stress. This is the basic ignorance of what WE see as a object of desire. WE think that WE are here to get alot of stuff, power, money. But that is all not true.

One of the psychologist mention about a true case about his friend, man in his late 40s. He was hosiptalised and the psychologist went to visit him.
The man said: "i want to stop."
And so the psychologist asked him: "what do you mean?"
The man said: "I earned my 1st million in my 30s. And now i have already earned 14million. But i realise i've lost alot of things."
The man though had earned alot of money, because of his frequent travelling he had lost his close ties with his family, his health, and his true happiness.

Greed
Didn't catch what much of what they said.
Anyway, they mention about people trying to make tons of money so they can buy things that they desire. Things that WE think we need in order to be happy.
One of the monk stated an example. His friend lived in a semi-detach with a beautiful garden and a big pond. But his friend wasn't happy.
The monk asked him: "why? you have gotten what you have always hoped for! a big house with a beautiful garden and a big pond..and all those luxury"
His friend replied: "I'm not happy because i'm working my life away to pay for and maintain all these!"

*I suppose our greed comes from our ignorance. That WE cannot differentiate between our needs and wants. And so we spend our whole life pursuing for more and more luxury.

Anyway never hear anything about the anger part.. i guess i missed it.
haa.. okay, that's for all now.

9:32 PM
i spilled milk on the lawn