Tuesday, January 02, 2007
At times i question myself
There are times where I am skeptical of reality, and all that has happened around me. I question myself: "Was it all for real?" And at times i wished someone would come forth and tell me it was just a bad dream and he/she will take me back - back to the start.
The other day wenD pop this question: "What is your biggest regret in life?" The first thing that pops up in my mind was _________________. I know that some people will slap me if they find out what it is. So i decided to keep numb about it.
Oh, did i mention that i
DO dream now? Yes, and i dream almost everyday. Stress - that's what my brother says. Anyway, there was a dream about me having a fight with ______ and _______. It felt so real. I was tearing and i woke up to find my pillow wet. I was too afraid to fall asleep after that. Calculations of the probability of it happening ran through my mind. Stupid? I don't know.
7:14 AM
i spilled milk on the lawn
sometimes i love all these pain i'm going through cause they remind me how much a failure i am.
