Monday, January 22, 2007
behind the lens, i hide
"Pretend you are alright even if you're not. You don't want them to throw you into institutionalization do you?"
Probably right.. so what now? Just hide and pretend like everything is rainbow and butterflies? Damn.. oh i forgot i've been doing that all these while. Ha! So much that i thought it was all real. Oh i ought to give myself a pat on the back for doing sucha great work.
Today, or rather yesterday, was a competition between my mom and dad for the title "Best Cook". And the winner? There wasn't really a winner cause u know.. it puts the kids in a spot to say who wins. It's like death for both choices.
Anyway i made my dad teach me more about photography. I know he's happy, cause it's not like everyday that i show interest in his profession. I would be going "oh please don't tell me bout it" - that's the norm. But not today, or rather anymore. Somehow i'm keen to learn... maybe paving another route for myself. I mean .. hey everyone needs a contingency plan!
I can hear people shouting: "Cut the crap and show some pictures." Well then, enjoy.
4:28 AM
i spilled milk on the lawn
sometimes i love all these pain i'm going through cause they remind me how much a failure i am.
