It've been quite a while haven't it? Spank my lazy ass for not blogging, please.
Anyway, it's been 24 business days and my dvd have not freaking arrive! Someone tell me that i've been conned though i don't quite believe that i am. I mean the seller has 7141 feedbacks over a year of which 99.1% is positive. I mean, who the hell would be so free to constantly create new accounts and spam himself with positive feedbacks just to con a few bucks out of someone else. That's incredibly crazy and evil. Could be postage that's lagging. Aye.. there's such a long story behind the dvd (on how i was told it is out of stock locally but eventually managed to get my hands on it from one of the shops here) and i'm least excited over the damn dvd anymore. Yes, the worst things always have to happen on me. Praise the lord.
I realised i've been quite problematic recently. First it was my constant need to quench my thirst which led me to think that i've kidney problem, and now the back of my knee (where the red arrows point) hurts like f-k whenever i stand up from either squatting or sitting for long hours. It's been like this for weeks.
Oh i just realise i'm very hum ji. Okay i didn't just realise that today. I took vitamin C pill today because my head feels heavy for the entire day and my body feels like it's burning, internally that is. Wa lao. I feel like a sissy.
Ahh! And i always have problem focusing my vision. See! I'm such a problematic kid. ahaha.
Sat down and watched House of Harmony with my dad, mom and younger sister. As usual someone would give a comment then there'll be a small harmless argument. That totally reminded me why i hate sitting down and do things together as a family. Maybe i'm just not a people person. I never really liked to eat together as a family, to watch television together, and many other things that a a family normally do. I prefer being alone, in solitude.
I don't entirely hate doing things with my family. I like the times when my siblings and i kill those big flying ants that normally appear after a heavy rain. I like the way we'd scream in horror when they crawl on us. I like the way we'd sing "if there's a bug in the neighborhood, who would you call? Pest busters!!" (sing to the tune of ghost busters) I like the way we smirk when we kill one it and the disgusted face we carry on our faces while looking at the aftermath.
this strong facade i'm tired of i resign loosen your grip leave me alone let me fall save your energy and go elsewhere that hand of yours, i'm not taking it
Having gone through countless preachings on how we should uphold the service standards, it's totally nauseating whenever i come across a fucked up service crew. Just today alone i have came across 2 fucked up service staff which, of course, made my blood boil.
The first bad service encounter i had was at Music Junction. The moment i walked into the shop, all i could hear is the staff's thunderous chatter and laughter which totally drowned the on going background music. I mean, there's like a few other customers in the shop and the staff were totally oblivious. HELLO?! If you're not gonna attend to us at least kindly not laugh like a hyena. It's disturbing. Very disturbing in fact. Alright, so picked the VCD and headed for the counter. I thought it was common sense for a staff to stop whatever they are doing at any point of time and attend to a customer. But apparently this particularly stupid staff i met seemed to not have any common sense. She just continued sweeping the darn floor like she'd get an award for being spick and span. And when she finally decided to attend to us, oh-my-god, her attitude was totally intolerable. Her face is bad enough for me to withstand and she had to give me that screwed up attitude, and the dumb ass sarcasm when she found out it was the first time my friend and i was renting a video. Bitch. I bet nobody wants to fuck her. I'd definitely love to see her face when someone says "what? you mean you never had sex?" to her.
The second bad encounter took placed at MOS burger. I'm lazy to explain myself. Ask if you want to know.
i was trying out different ways to make my hair, and i got fed up so i just messed up my hair and walked away. (shut up, i refuse to admit i've no skill) anyway, i didn't know my hair would end up looking like that till my sister told me. i guess sometimes it's useless to try too hard! roarrr..
oh, i think my fringe and sides needs to get longer, and the back needs to get shorter.
talking to gabriel is probably one of the nicest things to do. all his stupid ideas, the way he sees things, the way he laughs, the stupid things he says to annoy me, oh oh... the best part, when he sings over the phone and he doesn't know i'm listening. wahahahha! dude, i love you!
Sometimes i can't help wondering why everyone wants to go to heaven. This entire make believe thing too beautifully painted. Just wondering if the real deal lives up to it's name. At least i hope the part where they say heaven is a place void of sorrow is true, cause i don't know what it would be like to know that's where you'll choose her over me.
The other day on the bus i came to realise that when you take your mind of everything and focus on breathing, it (the heart) hurts more because you know the pain is real.
Do you guys still get calls from anonymous people wanting to buy don's chicken pie from you? Don't laugh, i'm being serious here. I still get them, loads of them. Seriously, i searched the entire technorati, blogspot, google for my personal selling website and i can't fucking find it. How in the fucking hell did these people manage to dig it (whatever it is.. my website, my contact etc.) out from? These guys are fucking potential stalkers!
Man.. if these people called at the RIGHT time (when i'm still doing my personal selling module) i'd be fucking happy to entertain all their calls. All of them. Even if it's someone calling at 3.15am to buy 1/8 of a don's chicken pie for his/her pregnant hamster whose having sudden midnight craving for it. I swear to God i'd answer his/her call with a smile.
Coming to think about it, I'd have probably made like what? $20349.39 sales from these people?! I'd get fucking rich selling chicken pie! -worships chicken pie- OK, not that we get any commission out of it anyway. Just my imagination. Everyone of us is just a money generator for the school. Seriously, why do they have to squeeze money out of us like that? Oh. I almost forgot it ain't cheap to run porn productions and have them mass distributed through the student's mail. Really! The cost of managing the database alone... I can totally understand.
Right, back from digression. Right now i totally DO NOT appreciate these 'stalkers' calling me when i'm still in bed, or when i'm really having a bad day and they decide to further ruin it. And there's this particular lady i have to mention. Not that i'm picking on you bitch, but you call every other day to check if i decided to start selling chicken pie again. WTF?! Listen, I DO NOT SELL CHICKEN PIE! i repeat, I DO NOT AND WILL NOT EVER EVER SELL CHICKEN PIE ESPECIALLY DON'S CHICKEN PIE. And NO. NO DICK'S CHICKEN PIE EITHER.
my parents removed the railings at home to move some things. it's scary. =/ me + my imagination = scarier. i hyperventilate whenever i walk pass the hallway.
ok, i know i've asked some people for the 21809493th time already. and i'm pai seh to bother people with my stupid question via sms again. so i shall shamelessly ask it here.
i really need to know....
what is the exact date of our IPP??
-embarrassed look- i'm sorry your friend here has poor memory.
would some kind soul please tag on my board or sms me the date? thanks in advance :)
i paused and gave it a thought. was i right? or have i ever been right? i never found the answer. then i asked. why should i feel the way i feel, when i could be better off feeling something else? i found it; the answer. i told myself. care less. it'll do you good.
i realised i've unconsciously fallen into what many have fell for. it's time to take a step back before i find myself hating myself.
I realised i've been quite problematic recently. First it was my constant need to quench my thirst which led me to think that i've kidney problem, and now the back of my knee (where the red arrows point) hurts like f-k whenever i stand up from either squatting or sitting for long hours. It's been like this for weeks. 
ok. i don't know why the title. never mind.
Sometimes i can't help wondering why everyone wants to go to heaven. This entire make believe thing too beautifully painted. Just wondering if the real deal lives up to it's name. At least i hope the part where they say heaven is a place void of sorrow is true, cause i don't know what it would be like to know that's where you'll choose her over me.
sometimes i love all these pain i'm going through cause they remind me how much a failure i am.
